My new journey...

Day One

Wednesday, December 18, 2013

So my journey begins, again…Wow how many times have I said that before?  It’s true, for me at least.  I guess the basics are in order, who, why, where, when, what and how.  My English teacher would be so proud.  J

My name is Shelley Black, I am 37 years old.  I am a mother of one amazing daughter, and a wife of one loving husband.  Who I have to mention now, has his degree in Exercise Science and used to be a personal trainer. And I am fat.  With that being said, I know you are saying in your head it should be a piece of cake, but it’s not.  Yum, cake, that sounds good…and that there my friends lies the problem.  I LOVE TO EAT!  I am a sucker for food, but not the right food.  Sweets and Carbs.  They are (or were) my friends until now.  It’s officially, we are breaking up.  I know, I know, it’s a week from Christmas.  I know you are thinking I am crazy, but I have to prove to myself I can do it and that my friends, is why it is happening today. 

Wow, so I guess you need a few more basics about me.  Again I am 37 years old.  But thankfully I don’t feel that old.  I feel in my mid to late 20’s which is pretty good I think.  I am an avid runner, inside on the treadmill.  See we live just outside Houston, Texas in a place called The Woodlands.  And why yes, it got its name for the woods, it also gets to be hotter than the sun, and have some of the worst humidity.  That is why I choose to workout in a “controlled environment”. 

I never thought I would admit my weight, online for all to see, but again, I think for my journey to come full circle, I have to have a goal for all to know, and with that, you have to know where I started at.  My goal is to be healthy, and happy and weigh between 125-131.  That my friends would put me on cloud nine.  To get there, I need to lose 65.1 pounds.  So if you are good at math, that means I weigh 190.5.  Ok, so it’s out there.  Wow, I think I must have drunk some truth serum or something.  I never knew I would be brave enough to admit it.

And again, there lies my problem.  I hide behind what I think I should be.  Don’t get me wrong, emotionally I love myself and am comfortable with who I am.  Physically, well, not so much.  I don’t want to get to the point of no return.  I don’t want to be the one that people feel sorry for, although they already might.  I REFUSE TO BE THE “FAT” FRIEND!!!!!!!  It’s not me; it’s not what makes me happy.  And that is all about to change.  So, with falling on my knees in front of my God and asking him to help guide me through this journey and with the support of my family and friends I am going to SUCCEED!  I am going to be the person I want to be.   I have an extremely supportive husband, daughter, parents, sister, and friends, and I know that they will help keep me going in the direction I need to go.

Will you come with me?   I am taking a leap of faith right now, by documenting it all for the world to see.  It just takes one step, and you can start right now and have a friend to go with.  If you need support, let me know, if you need to scream or shout, let me know, if you need someone that can give you a pat on the back and support your goals and achievements, let me know.  If you need a hug, even if it is virtual, let me know.  All of these things we can support each other in.  I know I will need the support as it will be not only a weight loss journey, but a life changing journey as well.  Good luck my friends!

Your not for long fat friend,

Shelley